Somehow it's really hard to believe that I'm already 3 weeks into the fall semester, 2011/2012 school year. It just doesn't seem at all possible!!! I guess when you're so focused on things, you lose track of time. I think I'm finally starting to develop a studying routine, as well as getting into the rhythm of doing things. That helps me out a lot in that I don't walk around like a headless chicken wondering what to do next! The past two weeks have been kind of trying for me, as last week saw me have a near meltdown (more on that later). I let homework slide, did things last minute, and all around, just wasn't in the right headspace.
Back to my mention of my meltdown; you know by now that this is the first time I've ever been away from home for any extended period of time (summer excluded). It's been very, very hard on me to get used to being on my own, being responsible for my meals and myself, and all in all just being 12 hours away from home and not getting to go home every other weekend. I think a lot of kids here who do have family 3 or 4 hours away take for granted the fact that they can travel home in a weekend to see their family; I can't. My only times to see them are Thanksgiving, Christmas, and spring break, which I suppose is something I should start getting used to, considering that, when I get out into the 'real world', I won't be able to come home every weekend, or be able to do whatever I want to whenever I want. I'll be tied to a job with set hours and an employer who determines when I can take off. Not trying to make that sound bad at all, but just stating a fact. anyway, couple being homesick with not having a group of friends to "hang out with", and not really feeling at home at church (that will hopefully change in the coming weeks), it makes for a very depressed me.
But, I know things won't get better unless I try to change them. I can't sit around moping if I'm not willing to do things to remedy the situation (like going to another church since I'm not happy with the one I'm at right now), but then I'm stuck because I HAVE to develop time to working on projects, papers, and studying. Right now, it's hard for me to determine when I can and can't have fun, and for how long. Sounds like it should be easy, right? Well, I'll gladly argue with you on that point. But I'm sure that once I get more into the groove of things, learn to manage my time a little better, and otherwise, I'll be able to do more "fun" things that I want to do.
Sorry if this depressed any of you. But you know, misery loves company. :) :p
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